If I were

It was a pleasant winter morning, with the soft breezes wishing me good morning, i lazily woke up
from my bed freeing myself from the cuddles of her.

but contrary to the nature's welcome it took me only few minutes to realize that i actually got up because
of some loud knocks on my door. I hastily dressed up and went to the door.
There i saw someone  through the peep hole and before I could ask who he is, the three lions on his cap were shining and made me salute him from inside.

he gave a weird smile and sarcastically asked me
"Sorry for disturbing you so early in the morning, I am sure you must have had a long night"
he barged in to my bedroom and questioned who she was, the one who is happily lying on bed cuddling the pillow still thinking I'm next to her.

How do I answer this simple question WHO IS SHE?
She, the angel, the love of my life.
I met her one day in a park where I used to almost daily walk aimlessly , questioning myself with so many unanswered questions,
blaming the society for the loneliness I'm in, talking to myself with none to share what I feel.
There was an immediate wave of attraction between us, as if we were meant to be met.
we spoke for hours that evening as if we knew each other for years, I poured out my heart before her
with no fears and same is the case with her. That day made a change in my life, in my lonely shattered worried life.

I found my life and love the same day. There after I have never looked back and it's almost an year now.

I was disturbed from my thoughts with his latti hit the cot and woke up my angel.
She got up with still half closed eyes , shouting for disturbing her sleep which i generally would not do.Her half opened eyes are searching for my smiling face, and her ears for a warm good morning from me which inturn has received  a  high pitch noise of the police man shouting "get up, u dog!!".

Tears rolled down my eyes as I immediately understood what is gonna follow, she hurriedly opened her eyes and realized what has welcomed
her this morning.
Police continued his yelling, " u both, the dogs are far better than u. u bloody girls are u not ashamed of doing this
in a society like ours. Put your clothes on and move with me u filty bitches." …. and the lines went on
and on.

We both silently dressed up and walked with him out of the small 1bhk flat which we recently moved in to ,
after we were embarrassed the same way in our previous flat a month ago. not to my surprise  we were
met with many piercing eyes from our neighborhood, some cursing, some murmuring, some looking at us
and sending their children inside as if looking at us would bring some bad omen to their families.These are the same neighborhood who would not turn up if a wife is bet red and blue by a husband, which
would not hear the cries of an youth bet and even killed in the name of honor. Yes it is the same neighborhood who are all eyes and ears
wen we were walking out of our flat.


An educated lawyer was yelling, take them away such a shame to my society!!
"Which society are u talking about, a society where a senior supreme court judge asked an intern to share a room with him? look in to your own
working society before worrying about the entire society"

A old lady was heard saying "rama rama, never in our days!!"
Why lady, why not in your age? when it is existing in your fore fore fathers age. keep your spectacles in place and
look in to temple carvings. u would see many of us there".

This is how silently I was shouting to the best of my voice to all these heartless people around me deep inside my heart and got in to the jeep.

I heard the horn of the jeep ringing it is ringing . it is not fading it is still ringing. Louder and louder each second.
yes it is ringing so loud that i could feel it next to my ear. intact it is the new doll that i have bought for my brother for his last bday that he
is ringing it in my ears to wake me up from my deep sleep. I got up and realized that I had such a bad dream may be it is not a bad dream.
it is an eye opening dream , I'm now 13 who is not sure about anything about future let alone my sexual orientation. I may not dare to follow my choices in this unjustful society!!!!!!